I’m sad…yun lang siguro pwede kong masabi for now. I’m on denial these days, ayoko na sanang pag usapan but that’s life. I really have to face and admit the fact that were not gonna be together this Christmas, sa 1st anniversary ng marriage nmin, sa bday ko at sa ibang pang important events na darating. It’s not our choice but suddenly my visa was not yet ok for some technical reasons. I really have to take the dutch examination…waaaa so have to study and pass their exam. I don’t know kung hanggang kelan ako maghihintay. Naging turning point ng relasyon nmin ito. it’s only the beginning for a better day, un na lang iniisip nmin. Giving up is the last thing on my mind ryt now. I have to be strong for RICH. Lately he’s been crying and so do I. Kz his birthday is coming and eto sana ang first Christmas nmin together.
Were really having a hard time now, ayoko na sanang isulat ito but people were asking na, And maybe gusto ko lang din ilabas ung nasasaloob ko. Sabi nga nmin maybe di pa oras sa ngayon. I have things to do muna dito, so now may oras ako and dapat gawin ko na ang dapat kong gawin. I must keep myself bz para di ko gano maisip yun at para wag din mabored dhil kung lagi kong iisipin mag aaway at mag aaway kmi.Tiis tiis muna kami sa ngayon. Basta wag lang kming mawawalan ng faith and hope na magkakasama kmi.
Di lahat ng bagay nakukuha sa madalian, we have to be patient about it. Sabi ko nga ito ang pinili kong buhay. From the start I knew that it will be this tough but dito ako masaya. I Love Richard so much so I rather take the risk, I hope and I know someday we will be together… IN GOD’s Time n’ Will.
cRiticS